Saturday 14 July 2012

nothing


If you love me, then why do you not embrace me?
You hug me, but you don’t kiss me.
I am trying to protect you.
the sky looks green.
It misses you.
Don’t tell me that.
I say only the truth.
You told me you loved me.
I did not lie.
I cannot live life without you
You must.
The moon is running away.
It does not love the sun.
The sun illuminates the moon, but they cannot share the same sky.
The clouds mourn the moon’s departure.
The clouds mean nothing to the moon.
The moon means everything to the sun.
The sun should not love the moon. It is too brilliant to seek such a small thing.
The moon is the sun’s contrast, its yang.
I cannot touch the ground.
Don’t. float away.
I must not.
I need it.
I must leave.
My heart will be flooding
Don’t let it. There is nothing here to make you bleed.
I am only in a delicate room with a thousand knives pointing to my heart.
Nothing can hurt you. I must not.
I love you.
.


I linger here. I should not.
You have left, you have fled.
I know I should not wait, because you will not come.
And yet I do, I wait.
And wait,
And wait.
But you do come.
And nothing ever happened.
I forgive you.



And still, you leave.
You are forgiven,
But my heart is not.
It hurts again.
Like a wound that closes up
But opens again
And again
And again.